Everybody loves a good Kiwi!!!

2004-03-17T07:54:00.000-06:00

Lieutenant Governor
Name: Joe Maxwell
Political Party:
How long in office: Since November of 2000
Size of vote in winning office, compared with opp.:
Personal Background:
Political Opinions:
Well known groups and persons who support him:
Things he wants to Accomplish:
motto: "I believe in leaving an office in better condition than I found it."

2004-03-17T07:40:00.000-06:00

The idea of plea-bargaining is widley used in the 16th judicial circuit court of jackson county. many offenders decide they would rather go to jail for less time than spend time fighting their case. this works because the state will lessen the penalty if the offender does time without going to court. This saves the state time and money. It works well for the defender if he/she thinks she will be found guilty because plea-bargaining will lessen punishment.
According to the public defenders office the non-partisan court plan of selecting judgfes is effective and efficient. the courts choose three judges applications out of hundreds and then one judge is picked out of the remaining three by the governor. later in the judge's term he/she may appear on the ballot for voters to decide if he should continue serving or be relieved.
There are lots of people who work in the court while the trial is taking place. for example, there is the court clerk, whose job is to keep track of all the paperwork and record how long the court is in session. another is the court recorder whose job is to record the oral proceedings of the court and produce later if necessary. a bailiff is normally some kind of law enforcement officer whose job is to keep order in the court and assist the judge.

2004-03-16T17:24:00.000-06:00

this is a lot of reallllllllllllllllllly good bands.
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20 X
Alexisonfire
Alkaline Trio
Allister
All Rights Reserved
Amber Pacific
Anatomy of A Ghost
Another Damn Dissapointment
Anti-Flag
Arkham
ASG
Atmosphere
Audio Karate
Autopilot Off
Avenged Sevenfold
Bad Religion
The Beautiful Mistake
Big D and the Kids
Billy Talent
Blackfire
Bleed the Dream
Brazil
Break Dance Vietnam
Break the Silence
The Briggs
Bouncing Souls
Boys Night Out
The Casualties
Chronic Future
The Code
Codie
Coheed and Cambria
The Commercials
Crowned King
Don't Look Down
Duane Peters and The Hunns
Dynamite Boy
Early Man
The Early November
Eight Fingers Down
The Eyeliners
A Faith Called Chaos
Fall Out Boy
Fighting Jacks
Flogging Molly
From Autumn to Ashes
From First to Last
The F#*k Ups
Go Betty Go
The God Awfuls
Good Charlotte
Guttermouth
Happy Campers
Hazen Street
Hidden in Plain View
His Orange
The Hurt Process
IMA Robot
In So Far
The (International) Noise Conspiracy
Jackson
Jersey
Juliette & the Licks
Keg
The Kinison
Lakeside
Lars Frederiksen and the Bastards
Letter Kills
Lennon
Lillix ?? WTF?
Lylah
Madison
Mae
Matchbook Romance
The Matches
Melee
Minority
Montys Fan Club
Motion City Soundrack
Much the Same
My Chemical Romance
New Found Glory
NOFX
Northstar
Only Crime
Opiate 4 the Masses
Oreon
O're The Ramparts
Over It
Piebald
Pipedown
Planet Smashers
Plans for Revenge
Potluck
Pulley
The Q
The Red West
Reeve Oliver
The Revolution Smile
Rise Against
Rolling Blackouts
Rose Hill Drive
Rufio
Sahara Hotnights
Saosin
Senses Fail
Shiner Massive
Side 67
The Silence
Silverstein
Simple Plan
Single Frame
Slowdance
The Snakes, The Cross, The Crown
The Sounds
Spell Toronto
Split Sense
Stars Hide Fire
Straight Outta Junior High
Stole Your Woman
Story of the Year
Suffocate Faster
Sugarcult
The Swear
Taking Back Sunday
A Thorn For Every Heart
Thursday
Thought Riot
Tiger Army
The Tossers
Trophy Scars
Truth in Fiction
Underminded
Unit F
Van Stone
The Vandals
Victory Within
Wanted Dead
Washington Social Club
Windsor
Yellowcard
Yesterday's Rising

2004-03-02T21:15:00.000-06:00

Thursday-A Hole In the World
In this blackout inertia will hold our thoughts
And the exit sign offers no light to see by
Can we cast our shadows alone in the dark
I can't see without you

When the world is crashing down
Part with it, start again
When the world is crashing down
These notes will fold themselves

Standing at the margins end
to see where the daybreak ends
You can find compassion here
but the page turns too fast

We fell in this hole that opened up
givin up on hope, living without love
And we still type black lines
When the world is crashing down
These notes will fold themselves

Adjust the aperture to focus on the negative
Like phosohors in the darkroom ignite'
Like dodging faces in the corner of the print
Frame by frame this hole is opening up and we fall in

There's no such thing as whole
There is a hole in the world

2004-02-16T13:25:00.000-06:00

still havent heard anything from my mom.
dont do anything for my birthday.

2004-02-16T11:47:00.000-06:00

totally blew it last night.
the one time i actually have plans erg.
i mean i can always say i didnt know because i didnt, but i still feel like shit about it.

2004-02-14T12:00:00.000-06:00

I don’t know
What seers have said
But fate was queer
And times we had
Our big mistake was incomplete
So pure and sweet

We had to break
Our ties in two
I could not say I want you
I do recall what she had said now
What she had said to me now

I said I said I now
It’s clicklesley calling
It’s clicklesley calling
The sweetest sound in town
The sweetest sound

I don’t know
What time will come
I might be late
Though I will run
It is far and still a maze
The wish we chase

Our little world
Too small to breathe
Was like a stone
With us beneath
But don’t regret
The time we had
The time we have - we have now

I said I said I now
It’s clicklesley calling
It’s clicklesley calling
The sweetest sound in town
The sweetest sound

It's not for the cause
It’s not for the fiction
It’s not for the cause
It’s not for the fiction
I can’t say what’s to say now
No I can’t say now

2004-02-13T15:15:00.000-06:00

this week has just gone downhill lately.
I'm really afraid that my birthdays going to come up on tuesday and nobody is going to remember or care. i already know that my moms not going to do anything for it, but it still hurts that she doesnt care.
i just opened up an email from my dad about how important my birthday is. especially because its my 18th. yadda yadda yadda.
it filled me with this horrible feeling of emptiness in the pits of my stomach. my throat got really tight and im still trying to hold back the tears.
if my 18th birthday is so god damned important, why cant my own mother remember it?
ive been worried about it for weeks now and now im not even excited about my 18th birthday. its just another day that my mom wont show up.
whatever. this is such a whiney entry.
donnies car broke down yesterday. his front axles or something. i dont fucking know. all i know that its one more weekend i dont get to spend with him, and one more fucking valentines day that ill spend by myself. thank god for ashley. if she wasnt coming down this weekend, i might explode.

2004-02-11T15:23:00.000-06:00

fuck. apparantly mest/fob/mbr is sold out.
fuck.

2004-02-10T14:56:00.000-06:00

2004-02-08T21:59:00.000-06:00

my birthday is next tuesday.
thats all the futz im making about it.

2004-02-07T00:16:00.000-06:00

it hurts to look into the past, but looking forward is painful too.
im so afraid that on my birthday nobody will remember or care. im so afraid that i wont hear from my mom that the thought of my birthday coming makes me queasy. the thought that the person who brought me into this world doesnt give enough of a shit to bother with me. its like "oh, that thing i popped out...that might have happened 18 years ago today...who cares?"
looking forward, its like
she wont be there at my graduation.
she wont be there for my first day of college.
she wont be there when i get engaged, or married, or have a kid.
she wont be there for anything.
and not because she cant be there. because she doesnt want to.

2004-02-06T23:21:00.000-06:00

one day closer to my birthday, and im ten times surer that my moms not going to call or anything.
pleh.

2003-09-25T21:23:00.000-05:00

I’m heaven sent
don’t you dare forget
I am all you ever wanted
what all the other boys all promised
sorry I told I just needed you to know
I think in decimals and dollars
I am the cause to all your problems
shelter from cold
we're never alone
coordinate brain and mouth
then ask me what its like to have my self so figured out
wish I knew

I hope this song starts a craze
the kinda song that ignites the airways
the kinda song that makes people glad to be where they are
with whom ever they're there with
this is war
every line is about who I don’t wanna write about anymore
hope you come down with something they cant diagnose
they'll have the cure for holding on to your grudge
oh its so hard to have someone to love
keeping quiet is hard
cause you cant keep a secret
if it was never was a secret to start
at least pretend you didn’t wanna get caught

We're concentrating on fallen apart
we were contenders of thrown in a fight
I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe
I just wanna believe... in us

oh we're so c-c-c-controversial
we are entirely smooth
we've been to the truth
we are the best at what we do
the means to the words you wish you wrote down
this is the way you wish your voice sounds
handsomely smart
oh the tongue the only muscle in my body that works harder than my heart
and is all from watching tv
and its speeding up my breathing
wouldn't stop if i could
oh it hurts to be this good
holding on to your grudge
oh it hurts to always have to be honest with the one that you love
oh so let it go

We're concentrating on fallen apart
we were contenders, a bull in a fight
I just wanna believe
I just wanna believe
I just wanna believe in us

We're concentrating on fallen apart
we were contenders, a bull in a fight
just wanna believe
i just wanna believe
I just wanna believe in us

This is the craze only we can withstand
this is the price you pay for lost of control
this is the breaking of man
this is closest we've called
this is the reason your in love
this is the world we live in

We're concentrating on fallin' apart
we were contenders, a bull in a fight
I just wanna believe
I just wanna believe
I just wanna believe in us

We're concentrating on fallen apart
we were contenders, a bull in a fight
I just wanna believe
I just wanna believe
I just wanna believe in us

2003-09-05T23:10:00.000-05:00

fuel-shimmer
She calls me from the cold
Just when I was low, feeling short of stable.
All that she intends;
And all she keeps inside, isn't on the label.

She says she's ashamed
'N can she take me for a while?
And can I be a friend,
We'll forget the past,
but maybe I'm not able
And I break at the bend..

We're here and now,
Will we ever be again?
Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
Away
Again

She dreams a champagne dream
Strawberry surprise, pink linen on white paper
Lavender and cream
Fields of butterflies, reality escapes her

She says that love is for fools that fall behind
And I'm somewhere in between
I never really know
A killer from a saviour
'Til I break at the bend

We're here and now.
Will we ever be again
Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
Away
Again

It's too far away for me to hold
Too far away
It's too far away for me to hold
Too far away
Ahow
Yeah
It's too far away for me to hold
Too far away
It's too far away for me to hold
Too far away
It's too far away for me to hold
Too far away
It's too far away for me to hold
Too far away
Guess I'll let it go

2003-08-23T18:38:00.000-05:00

The heat comes in distant shifts
To fill up my room
It spills out of these ancient vents
To meet the new cold
And I lay in my twisted sheets
And stare out at the snow
Thinking of the next few months
my cold and lifeless eyes
No, I've never felt so separate
Then there's you
But that's so obvious
So i just i just said it
It's hopeless and I know this
That's why I can't dream
No desire or circumstance
Keeps it from me
And keeps it from me, keeps it...
One by one, to department stores
We walk through the aisles
In a forest of designer clothes
You touch me and smile
And, oh, for a moment
I could want nothing
Your bright eyes burn through my exploding heart
So we stand as the shoppers pass us
And for once I can feel the touch completely
And i need it
I need to
just be near you
And fill these empty eyes
You start turning
As resistance pulls you from my cold and boring life
Let's make this easy, let time pass
As devotion dies
The list goes on and on
Cause I am aching
and I'm waiting
For the touch to cure the fear
To cure the fear

2003-08-23T18:32:00.000-05:00

bright eyes-a perfect sonnet
Lately I've been wishing I had one desire
Something that would make me never want another
Something that would make it so that nothing matters
All would be clear then

But I guess I'll have to settle for a for a few brief moments
And watch it all dissolve into a single second
And try to write it down into a perfect sonnet
Or one foolish line

Cause that's all that you'll get
So you'll have to accept
You are here and then you're gone

But I believe that lovers should be tied together
Thrown into the ocean in the worst of weather
Left there to drown
Left there to drown in their innocence

But as for me I'm coming to the final chapter
I read all of the pages and there's still no answer
Only all that was before I know must soon come after
That's the only way it can be

So I stand in the sun
And I breathe with my lungs
Trying to spare me the weight of the truth

Saying everything you've ever seen was just a mirror
You've spent your whole life sweating in an endless fever
And laying in a bathtub full of freezing water
Wishing you were a ghost

But once you knew a girl and you named her "Lover"
Danced with her in kitchens through the greenest summer
But autumn came, she disappeared, you can't remember
Where she said she was going to

But you know that she's gone
Cause she left you a song
That you don't want to sing

Singing, I believe that lovers should be chained together
Thrown into a fire with their songs and letters
Left there to burn
Left there to burn in their arrogance

But as for me I'm coming to my final failure
I've killed myself with changes trying to make things better
And ended up becoming something other
than what I had planned to be

All right

I believe that lovers should be draped in flowers
And laid entwined together on a bed of clovers
Left there to sleep
Left there to dream of their happiness

2003-08-10T16:56:00.000-05:00

So long sweet summer
I stumbled upon you and gratefully basked in your rays
So long sweet summer
I fell into you
Now you’re gracefully falling away

Hey thanks
Thanks for that summer
It’s cold where you’re going
I hope that your heart’s always warm
I gave you the best
I gave you the best that I had
You passed on the letters and passed on the best that I had

So long sweet summer
I stumbled upon you and gratefully basked in your rays
So long sweet summer
I fell into you
Now you’re gracefully falling away

I hate the winter in Lexington
I hate the winter in Lexington
Lexington
Lexington
Lexington

2003-08-10T16:52:00.000-05:00

Okie So I'm posting and junk.

2002-07-23T13:26:00.000-05:00

teehee...
Dashboard Confessional-Again I go unnoticed
So quiet another wasted night, the television steals the conversation. Exhale, another wasted breath, again it goes unnoticed.

Please tell me that you're just feeling tired cause if its more than that I feel that I might break out of touch, out of time. Please send me anything but signals that are mixed, cause I can't read your rolling eyes.
out of touch, are we out of time?

Close lipped another good night kiss is robbed of all its passion. Your grip, another time is slack it leaves me feeling empty. I'll wait until tomorrow maybe you'll feel better then, maybe we'll be better then.

So what's another day when I can't bear these nights of thoughts of going on without you. This mood of yours is temporary and it seems worth the wait to see you smile again. Out of the corner of your eye won't be the only way you look at me then

2002-07-21T17:55:00.000-05:00

Staring into the intersection, she thinks that she can fly and she might
Holding on in a new direction, she's gonna try it tonight
The closer I get to feeling, the further that I'm feeling from alright
The more I step into the sun, the more I step out of the light

Jessica is covered ina blanket on a Sunday porch
Thinking of the weekends she would party in the city
She doesn't have a flame, she'd prefer to burn out like a torch
If she gets nowhere in life, at least she know's she pretty

She said, "Hey, now, the straw dog's out in the street
Hey now, there's chemicals in the clouds
Hey now, they're calling the police
They won't get to us, anyhow."

The moon is shining now and shadows are what's left of all the noise
Simple silhouettes and cutouts as if we had the choice
He listens closely now, swears that he can hear a voice
That's calling him and saying

"Hey, now, the straw dog's out in the street
Hey now, there's chemicals in the clouds
Hey now, they're calling the police
They won't get to us, anyhow."

What does it take to be a superhero in our world?
Make no mistake that these villains always get the girl
We can escape, and then we'd skate away from all of this
And no one ever does.

She's saying "Hey, now, the straw dog's out in the street
Hey now, there's chemicals in the clouds
Hey now, they're calling the police
They won't get to us, anyhow."
~*Something Corporate*~ ~!*Straw Dog*!~

2002-07-16T23:16:00.000-05:00

My favorite song
Gary Jules-Mad World

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere

And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tommorow, no tommorow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen

Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

2002-07-09T01:02:00.000-05:00

I want to be someone's Punk Rock Princess *_* that would be cool *_*

Something Corporate-Punk Rock Princess
Maybe when the room is empty, maybe when the bottles full, maybe when the door gets broke down love can break in.

Maybe when I’m done with thinking, maybe you can think me whole, maybe when I’m done with endings this can begin.

If you could be my punk rock princess I could be your garage band king. You could tell me why you just don’t fit in and how you’re 'gonna be something.

If I could be your first real heartache I would do it over again. If you could be my punk rock princess, I would be your heroine.

Maybe when your hair gets darker, maybe when your eyes get wide, maybe when the walls are smaller there will be more space. Maybe when I’m not so tired, maybe you could step inside, maybe when I look for things that I can’t replace. I never though you’d last, I never dreamed you would. You watch your life go past, you wonder if you should.

2002-07-07T23:39:00.000-05:00

dont lie anymore...whats the use?
Fiona Apple-Never is a promise
You'll never see the courage I know
Its colors' richness won't appear within your view
I'll never glow - the way that you glow
Your presence dominates the judgments made on you
But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch; I see from greater heights
I understand what I am still too proud to mention - to you
You'll say you understand, but You don't understand
You'll say you'd never give up seeing eye to eye
But never is a promise, and you can't afford to lie
You'll never touch - these things that I hold
The skin of my emotions lies beneath my own
You'll never feel the heat of this soul
My fever burns me deeper than I've ever shown - to you
You'll say, Don't fear your dreams, it's easier than it seems
You'll say you'd never let me fall from hopes so high
But never is a promise and you can't afford to lie
You'll never live the life that I live
I'll never live the life that wakes me in the night
You'll never hear the message I give
You'll say it looks as though I might give up this fight
But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch, I see from greater heights
I realize what I am now too smart to mention - to you
You'll say you understand, you'll never understand
I'll say I'll never wake up knowing how or why
I don't know what to believe in, you don't know who I am
You'll say I need appeasing when I start to cry
But never is a promise and I'll never need a lie

2002-07-05T19:32:00.000-05:00

blah

2002-07-05T19:29:00.000-05:00

Goo Goo Dolls-Name

And even though the moment passed me by I still can't turn away
I saw the dreams you never thought you'd lose tossed along the way
Letters that you never meant to send lost or thrown away

And now we're grown up orphans that never Knew their names
Don't belong to no one that's a shame
You could hide beside me maybe for a while
And I won't tell no one your name
I won't tell em' your name

Scars are souvenirs you never lose , the past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there , did you get to be a star
Don't it make you sad to know that life is more that who we are

You grew up way too fast and now there's Nothing to believe
And reruns all become our history
A tired song keeps playing on a tired radio
And I won't tell no one your name
I won't tell em' your name

I think about you all the time
But I don't need the same
It's lonely where you are come back down
And I won't tell em your name

2002-07-04T12:50:00.000-05:00

Change-Good Charlotte
I am lost in the see-through,
I think you lost yourself too
Throughout all of this confusion,
I think we'll somehow make it through

Each day just drags on by
Bringing with you a new light
And just when I think I could die
You come and bring me back to life

And you sang...

You can't change the way you feel
But you can't tell me this ain't real
(cause this is real)
Cause in the end it's all i've got
So I'm gonna hold
On and On (19x's)

Now you've got me watching your eyes
Got me waiting just to see
If it goes the way it never will
Your eyes are watching me

Oh and I practiced all the things I'd say
To tell you how i feel
And when i finally get my chance
It all seems so surreal

And now you've got me thinking 'bout
The first time that i met you
But now i can't forget you
Now i wont forget you

You said
You can't change the way you feel
But you can't tell me this ain't real
(cause this is real)
Cause in the end it's all i've got
So I'm gonna hold
On and On (19x's)

On and on and on and on....

2002-07-02T18:50:00.000-05:00

STARRY CONFIGURATIONS

starry configurations
am just a receiver
divine recombinations
am just a recordist
receptionist - unhappy medium
receptionist - unhappy medium

excellent accommodations
am just a bellboy
beautiful surroundings
am just some gravel
or peat moss - what have you
or peat moss - what have you now?

why must you treat me like you do?
don't you know it's all for you?

dear infatuation,
you do not see me
die here beside you
in see-through obscurity
governess - fancy less
we'll sound the alarm
and drum up some simpleton for you
to eat these apples from your eyes

emptiness fills room
and your love's bud goes full bloom
you don't love me
aren't thinking of me
why am I waiting for you
to see I'm alive?

storybook ending
am just a ledger
hardly worth a mention
or the paper
it's written on and cried upon
and kissed once by wax
but still you treat me like you do
with everything I've done for you

striking like a bird of prey
along your notepad now
the only year that turns your way

my dear diary: it's just you and me tonight
you don't love me
aren't thinking of me
you don't love me
aren't thinking of me tonight
why am I waiting for you
to see I'm alive?

--Jets to Brazil

2002-07-02T00:47:00.000-05:00

todays song is *duh duh duh* Dashboard Confessional-Hand's Down
its gorgeous cuz it shows how a guy cares about the little things, like small kisses, and the way you hold them and it just means a lot to me. ^^

Breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep, this air is blessed, you share with me. This night is wild, so calm and dull, these hearts they race, from self control. Your legs are smooth, as they graze mine, we're doing fine, we're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high, that your kiss might kill me. So won't you kill me, so I die happy. My heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewelery, which ever you prefer.

The words are hushed lets not get busted; just lay entwined here, undiscovered. Safe from the earth and all the stupid questions.. "hey did you get some?" Man, that is so dumb. Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear... so we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me. So won't you kill me, so I die happy. My heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewelery, which ever you prefer.

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember, I'll always remember the sound of the stereo, the dim of the soft lights, the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late and this walk that we shared together. The streets were wet and the gate was locked so I jumped it, and let you in. And you stood at the door with your hands on my waist and you kissed me like you meant it. And I knew that you meant it, that you meant it, that you meant it, and I knew, that you meant it, that you meant it.

2002-06-30T19:31:00.000-05:00

sometimes i just listen to this song cuz it makes me feel better about *me* it makes me feel like the guy in the song, constantly trying to tell my someone that i can get that someone that i want. *he* is constantly trying to make me think i'm not over him...with his "i hope youre as happy as you're pretending" b/s....so in a way i suppose that he is my Christine. when we first broke up, he said that there was a chance that it would feel right again, which makes me feel shitty cuz i know it was all one huge lie. he has a tendancy to do that, doesnt he? well anyways...song time
Sugarcult-Christine
what’s wrong?
i feel so alone again.
the look in your eyes sometimes...
pretending that it's all right.
make up and move on,
our ways never change
and i can get anyone that i want -
you’ll see christine.
and i would do anything if you could believe in me,
but girl-you play those tricks
and make a fool out of me.
that’s the way it goes here.
i can't stand loving you anymore.
i try my best, but i'm back for more.
my heart beat stops every time you leave me.
hanging on lately...
last night,
she came back into my life.
to play with my head this time.
she’s hanging me out for dead
i take it and move on,
our ways will never change
and i can get anyone that i want -
you’ll see christine.
and i would do anything if you could believe in me.
but girl, you play those tricks
and make a fool out of me.
that’s the way it goes here.
i can't stand loving you anymore.
i try my best, but i'm back for more.
my heart beat stops every time you leave me.
hanging on lately...
take her away, take her away, take her away from this place.
take her away, take her away, take her away from this place.
what’s wrong?
i feel so alone again.
i flunked out a thousand times,
it’s making me realize,
that i'm back and better for us.
our ways will never change
and i can get anyone that i want -
you’ll see christine.
and i would do anything if you could believe in me.
but girl, you play those tricks
and make a fool out of me.
you’ll see, christine.

2002-06-28T19:14:00.000-05:00

song of the day today is kasey chambers-just like yesterday.
her voice gives me goosebumps in a good way. her songs are so beautiful :)

Under labels of dirty sounds and heroes
there's your name written in stone.
And I can hear steel guitars playing
and it sounds like someone that I've known.

I've no shoes under me to stand on,
but my feet feel concrete on the ground.
And thanks to you, my father understands me.
Boy, you sure know how to turn the world around.

And me, I'm from a small town.
But I've been spending most my time away
and I still hear you every time the wind blows
and it sounds just like yesterday.

And there's no wall of steel wrapped around me.
There's no hand that holds me when I fall.
And all my years of hearing you reminds me,
the feeling that it's not the worst of all.

And now sometimes, you're the last thing I think of
cause I try not to think much anymore.
And thanks to you, I sometimes understand me
but I wonder what the understanding's for.

And me, I'm from a small town.
But I've been spending most my time away
and I still hear you every time the wind blows
and it sounds just like yesterday.
I still hear you everytime the wind blows...
it sounds just like yesterday (yesterday).

2002-06-25T23:36:00.000-05:00

This song makes me cry every time I hear it. It really means something to me right now, because of the whole richard thing, but now hes with someone new so whatever. he can go fuck himself.
Good Charlotte-Seasons
Summer air reminds me of
All the feelings of your love
And what it was like
When we were together
Walking all along the beach
You were never far from my reach
And you held me
Through the stormy weather
And I wanna fall in love
Tonight
And I remember when you said
Everything's gonna be alright
Laying in the summer grass
You told me not to talk so fast
As I told you
How I feel
You made me feel right at home
You told me I was not alone
And you knew
Just how I feel
I know we talked about it
I just can't get around
I just want one more night with you
I wanna fall in love
Tonight
And I remember when you said
Everything's gonna be alright
October air reminds me of
All the seasons of your love
And what it was like
When we were together
The smell of fall is everywhere
And though it seems I just don't care
'Cause now you've gone away
I wanna fall in love
Tonight
And I remember when you said
Everything's gonna be alright
Alright
I wanna fall in love
I wanna fall in love
Tonight

2002-06-20T17:23:00.000-05:00

today's song describes me in all of my spiffayness! its michelle branch-something to sleep to.
She's his yellow brick road
Leading him on
And letting him go as far
as she lets him go
Going down to nowhere

She puts on her make-up
The same way she did yesterday
Hoping everything's the same
But everything has changed

In my mind
Everything we did was right
Open your eyes, I'll still be by your side
How could I ever have been so blind?
You give me something to sleep to
at night

He wakes up to the sound
So scared that she's leaving
He wishes she were still
asleep next to him
Hoping she will change

In my mind
Everything we did was right
Open your eyes, I'll still be by your side
How could I ever have been so blind?
You give me something to sleep to
at night

You give me something to sleep to
And all I know is
You give me something to dream to when I'm all alone and blue
Don't leave me now
Don't leave me now

Don't leave me now
Don't leave me now
Don't leave me now
Don't leave me now
Don't leave me now
Don't leave me now

In my mind
Everything we did was right
Open your eyes, I'll still be by your side
How could I ever have been so blind?
You give me something to sleep to
Something to sleep to
Something to sleep to at night

2002-06-19T19:41:00.000-05:00

lol i should change this to all my favorite songs or something....lol....anyways todays song is konstantine by something corporate....its really long but really gorgeous.

I can't imagine all the people that you know
and the places that you go
when the lights are turned down low
and I don't understand all the things you've seen
but i'm slipping inbetween
you and your big dreams
it's always you
in my big dreams

and you tell me that it's over
wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clovers
and your restless, and i'm naked
you've gotta get out
you can't stand to see me shaking
no
could you let me go?
I didn't think so

and you don't wanna be here in the future
so you say the present's just a pleasent interruption to the past
and you don't wanna look much closer
cuz your afraid to find out all this hope you had sent into the sky by now had crashed
and it did
because of me

and then you bring me home
afraid to find out that you're alone
and i'm sleeping in your living room
but we don't have much room to live

I had these dreams that i learned to play guitar
maybe cross the country
become a rock star
and there was hope in me that i could take you there
but dammit you're so young
well i don't think i care
and if i hurt you
then i'm sorry
please don't think that this was easy

then you bring me home
cuz we both know what it's like to be alone
and i'm dreaming in your living room
but we don't have much room to live

and konstantine is walking down the stairs
doesn't she look good
standing in her underwear
and i was thinking
what i was thinking
we've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere

my Konstantine came walking down the stairs
and all that i could do is touch her long blonde hair
and i've been thinking
it hurts me thinking that these nights when we were drinking no they never got us anywhere
no

this is because i can spell konfusion with a k
and i like it
it's to dying in another's arms and why I had to try it
it's to jimmy eat world and those nights in my car
when the first star you see may not be a star
I'm not your star
isn't that what you said
what you thought this song meant

and if this is what it takes
just to lie in my mistakes
and live with what i did to you
and all the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock
it's 11:11
and now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
you'll always be my konstantine

konstantine, they'll never hurt you like i do
no they'll never hurt you like i do
no, no, no no no no no no

this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the pretty things she did
hey
you know
you keep me up in bed
this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the fucked up things i did
hey
maybe
baby
you could keep me up in bed
my Konstantine
spin around me like a dream we played out on this movie screen
and i said
did you know i missed you? (x7)
oh god i miss you

and then you bring me home
and we'll go to sleep, but this time, not alone, no no
and you'll kiss me in your living room
i know
you'll miss me in your living room
cuz these nights i think maybe that i'll miss you in my living room
we don't have much room
i said does anybody need that room?
because we all need a little more room
to live

my Konstantine

2002-06-16T19:36:00.000-05:00

i dont think you read this but i dont care......
Richard.....this is to you.

Wish I was too dead to cry
My self affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochist to which I cater

You don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go 'till it bleeds

Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest

I wish I had a reason
My flaws are open season
For this I gave up trying
One good time deserves my dying

You don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go 'till it bleeds

Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shelf forgotten with it's memories
Diaries left with cryptic entries

And you don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go 'till it bleeds

You don't need to bother
I don't need to be, yeah
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on, once I hold on
I'll never live down my disease

2002-06-16T00:34:00.000-05:00

me when i still cried, just talking to him.....

dashboard confessinal-living in your letters
I'm always assuming the worst, but you're going on nonetheless and there's nothing to cushion your heart led fall.
Letters from further away keep pulling me close to home.
And there is something to cushion my callous sighs.
And I know that you hope for longer good-byes embracing for forever and falling in your eyes.
Pouring over photographs. I'm living in your letters.
Breathe deeply from this envelope it smells like you and I can't be without that scent.
It's filling me with all you mean to me.
Continually failing these trials but you stand by me nonetheless and you won't let me sink though I'm begging you.
Phone calls from further away and messages on my machine, but I don't ever tell you this distance seems terrible.
There is no need to test my heart, with useless space.
These roads go on forever. They'll always be a place for you in my heart.
So I'll hit the pavement its got to be better than waiting and pushing you far away cause I'm scared.
So I'll take my chances and head on my way up there.
Cause turning to you is like falling in love when you're ten.

2002-06-15T00:12:00.000-05:00

Majandra Delfino-Tatoo
this song scares the shit out of me but in some ways i can see where she got the inspiration for it. there is a point where you want your ex to feel your pain because they seem so uncaring.

Suddenly you can live without me your no longer calling me up,
Hours pass by without you I can't stop myself from throwing up,
I'm woken up worrying will you come back I can't sleep in past eight,
Then when night comes around I am desperate and wired and can't fall asleep till late.
Cause my psyhchotic vengeance is on a killing spree,
My neurotic tendence is just about to set me free,
I think of little excuses of how I can get you,
I conjure up things that are abusive and how I'll be doing them to you,
This shows we can't pull through.
I want to call you up and cry to you and pleed,
I want to kick you down, kick you till you bleed,
I will bash your face in I will take you up the ass,
I'm gonna fuck your world up and dwell on just the past.
Cause my psyhchotic vengeance is on a killing spree,
My neurotic tendence is just about to set me free,
I think of little excuses of how I can get you,
I conjure up things that are abusive and how I'll be doing them to you, but I hate my new tattoo

2002-06-14T23:46:00.000-05:00

avril lavigne

Its the first time I ever felt this lonely
I wish someone could cure this pain
Its funny when you think its gonna work out
Til you chose her over me, you're so lame
I thought you were cool until the point
But up until the point you didnt call me
When you said you would
I finally figured out youre all the same
Always coming up with some kind of story

Everytime I try to make you smile
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Everytime I try to make you laugh
You can't
Youre too tough
You think you're the best
Is it too much that I'm asking for?

I thought you'd come around when I ignored you
So I thought you'd have the decency to change
But babe, I guess you didn't take that warning
'Cause I'm not about to look at your face again

Can't you see that you lie to yourself
You can't see the world through a mirror
It wont be too late when the smoke clears
'Cause I, I am still here

But everytime I try to make you smile
You'd always grow up feeling sorry for yourself
Everytime I try to make you laugh
You stand like a stone
Alone in your zone
Is it too much that I'm asking for?

Yeah yeah yeah yeah
Can't find where i am
Lying here
Alone I fear
Afraid of the dark
No one to claim
Alone again

Can't you see that you lie to yourself
You can't see the world through a mirror
It wont be too late when the smoke clears
'Cause I, I am still here

Everytime I try to make you smile
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Everytime I try to make you laugh
You can't
You're too tough
You think you're the best
It was too much that I'm asking for

2002-06-14T19:48:00.000-05:00

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

2002-06-13T21:34:00.000-05:00

i miss him

2002-06-13T01:04:00.000-05:00

The world has turned and left me here
Just where I was before you appeared
And in your place an empty space
has filled the void behind my face

I just made love with your sweet memory
One thousand times in my head
You said you loved it more than ever
You said
You remain, turned away
Turning further every day

I talked for hours to your wallet photograph
And you just listened
You laughed enchanted by my intellect
Or maybe you didn't
You remain, turned away
Turning further every day

Do you believe what I sing now?

2002-06-13T01:00:00.000-05:00

well for some reason i just got really sad....i decided to post it in here cuz no comments. im afraid. im afraid of being alone for the rest of my life or even just the rest of the summer. im afraid that i wont have anyone to love and thats all i really want....someone to love...and have them love me back....is that so much to ask? i really didnt think so...i mean im not looking on basis of looks, or popularity or anything like that, the basis is can i love you...i just want to feel like i'm worth it, like im something to be had...but i dont feel like that right now....right now i feel like i don't deserve anyone.....:( i feel like shiz.

2002-06-12T13:15:00.000-05:00

change the guystuff to girlstuff.....and you've got me 3 weeks ago.
the best deceptions-dashboard confessional

I heard about your trip. I hear about your souvenirs. I heard about the cool breeze, in the cool nights, and the cool guys you spent them with. Well I guess I should have heard of them for you. I guess I should have heard of them from you.
Don't you see, don't you see that the charade is over? and all the "Best Deceptions" and "Clever Cover Story" awards go to you.

So kiss me hard 'cause this will be the last time that I let you. You will be back some day and this awkward kiss that tells of other people's lips will be of service to keeping you away.

I heard about your regrets. I heard that you were feeling sorry. I heard from someone that you wish you could set things right between us. Well, I guess I should have heard of that from you. I guess I should have heard of that from you.

Don't you see, don't you see that the charade is over? And all the "Best Deceptions" and the "Clever Cover Story" awards go to you.

So kiss me hard, 'cause this will be the last time that I let you. You will be back someday and this awkward kiss that screams of other people's lips will be of service to keeping you away.

I'm waiting for blood to flow to my fingers, I'll be back someday and this awkward kiss that screams of other people's lips will be of service to keeping you away.

I'm waiting for blood to flow to my fingers, I'll be all right when my hands get warm.

Ignoring the phone, I'd rather say nothing. I'd rather you'r never heard my voice.

You're calling too late, too late to be gracious and you do not warrant long good-byes. You're calling too late. You're calling too late. You're calling too late.

2002-06-11T22:51:00.000-05:00

i decided to get a new blog on top of my livejournal one.....hey why not...this is where i can put stuff that well.......stuff i guess cuz i will probably give everyone and their mother this link, but oh well.....im out of thoughts so yeah.........